Proverbs 21

I mentioned at the end of July that I was going to start a daily study of Proverbs in August. August has 31 days and there are 31 chapters of Proverbs, seemed like a plan. God has revealed some incredible things to and about me. I've taking on one chapter a day, head on, to see what God wants to speak to me about.

I read chapter 21 last Thursday and found some truths about leadership in me. I was going to post it that day but I didn't know if I could be that vulnerable. But what I journaled kept going through my head. I began to wonder if I was the only one who had these revelations. So, rather than keep it between me and God I decided to share it with hopes that you too, may be encouraged to take on scripture and let God speak to you in amazing ways.

Proverbs 21

What about the leadership abilities You have bestowed upon me, why don’t I always see them. I see the potential but I think I often shrug it off because I don’t want to face the rejection. So what does that say about my faith. Verse 31 tells me to do my best, plan for the worst and trust You to bring victory. Do I always do my best? It’s probably my perception that I am, but isn’t there always room to step it up a little? I think so. Planning for the worst is probably one of my greatest strengths. I have this mentality of trying to 'head everything off at the pass'. Avoidance! Plan so tightly that there can’t be a leak. Problem is my omniscience
(ha ha) doesn’t work that great and things happen. Problem is that I usually end up devastated over that and feel like I’ve failed. I seem to miss the step of letting You bring victory. It’s like I just drop the ball. So that probably takes me back to verse 11. I must be a simpleton ‘cause I certainly learn the hard way more than I like.

My decision to make this post was confrimed when I heard Reliant K's "For the times I feel faint" on my IPOD this morning...

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands

I have to be diligent about putting my perceived inefficiencies in Gods hands and
let him to bring the victory.